Saturday, February 10, 2007


So all this downer talk lately makes me realize I really need to post something good. Something about the fun I've been having. And honestly, one of the biggest thrills I've had lately was being successfully hypnotised and having a trigger implanted!

It happened about a week ago (Man, I'm behind in updating). After a few days of regular listening of the relaxation file, Kalira and I were trying another face-to-face session. Once more she counted me down. I began to drift again, feeling light, and a bit disconnected. Finally she got me to visualize my mind as a door, one that I only needed to open for her. So, I opened the door for her and let her in. She then game me three triggers; the Barbie transformation, a freeze command, and a special trigger where I'd do anything that she types between two asterisks without knowing why I'm doing it. She then woke me up and went about trying out the triggers.

First she typed *meow like a cat*. Nothing happened. I saw the words fine, but didn't feel compelled to do it. Disappointed, she tried the Barbie trigger. Instantly, I began smiling. I also found myself unable to walk flat footed. I had to walk on my tip-toes, like I was wearing heels. Unfortunately, that's all that happened. I didn't feel any different. No smooth plastic skin, no solid nippleless breasts, and no changes below the belt, so to speak. And I didn't look any different in the mirror.

Finally, she tried the freeze trigger. As soon as I saw the trigger word on screen, I locked up in RL! I couldn't move a muscle! I could still blink, and swallow, but that was it. Well, except for getting really turned on about being immobile, that is ;)

After a few seconds, Kalira gave me the unfreeze trigger. Instantly, I could move again. I told her right away what happened and honestly I think she was just as happy as I was that one trigger fully worked. She then put me under again to see if she could strengthen the Barbie trigger. But once again the same thing happened. Smiles and heels, nothing else. At this point I was starting to get a little frustrated, not the best mindset to be in to be hypnotised. Kalira called it a night, but not before telling me to sleep overnight with the Barbie trigger on. She said it might help strengthen it, making it easier to take the rest of the trigger in.

The next day, I got out of bed and stood up. It took me only a second to realize I was flat footed. I also lost my oh so cheery smile. When I told Kalira about it later, she was disappointed, but not surprised. She says the mind tends to reset itself during sleep. And unless the command it set right, I'd just loose it. We then tried again to set the Barbie trigger. Once again, I was heels and smiles. And once again, nothing else. Kalira then said I might be having trouble visualising. She recommended another file, which I have been listening to a lot. Disappointed about the Barbie, we turned out attention back to the freeze trigger. Would it still work?

It did! Once again I froze, unable to move at all. After a few minutes freed me. She then asked if I wanted to be frozen longer. Of course I said yes! we settled on 10 minutes. Once more I was frozen, totally aware, but unable to move. Kalira had fun with me, walking around, dusting me in SL like I was a mannequin. She even at one point threatened to leave me frozen like this. I knew she was only playing, but honestly for a moment, I wished she would. 10 minutes later she unfroze me. Of course, the first thing out of my mouth was "Lets do that again!"

So Kalira took me out into a nice public place. She asked how long this time and I told her 20. She froze me again. Then she told me she had some shopping to do and she'd be back in 20 minutes. She also told me to fight as hard as I could to move while she was gone. Not able to say anything to stop her, she left. Those were the longest 20 minutes of my life. I struggled to move. I managed to grit my teeth. I got my eyes to squint. I think I even managed to get a toe to twitch. But everything else was like lead. I couldn't move at all. Finally Kalira came back and unfroze me. We then called it a night.

Unfortunately, that's the last session I've had with Kalira in a week. She's been offline, apparently with computer problems. A shame because I'm just dying to continue my dolly transformation

No longer owned

Well, this really wasn't a post I was expecting to do. Mya, for a variaty of reasons, has decided to no longer be my Mistress.I have to admit, it came as a bit of a suprise. What also came as a suprise was how I felt. I actually started crying in RL. I'm better now, though. Everyone really helped me, especially Gobblebom, Daphne, and Ralna. I'm taking the weekend off from SL. I need to clear my head a bit. I'll be camping at Kayliwulf, but I'm not going to be responding to any IMs until Monday.

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

Dark transformation

Every time my Mistress and I role play together, I’m always amazed at how wonderfully twisted she can be. Recently, our RP has taken on a very dark feel, one that I never would have imagined that I’d like.

It started when we were together in the apartment. My Mistress wanted to see me change out of the pink catsuit I was wearing (As I said before, my Mistress is Goth. She really doesn’t like pink) and show her the nicest dress I had. Unfortunately, I don’t own many dresses. Most of the clothing I own is either a lot of freebie stuff or more fetishy stuff. What I had was either way to casual or incredibly over the top dressy. So, my Mistress decided to take me out shopping for something nice.

We went to a mall, which one I don’t remember, and wandered around a bit looking at the wide variety of clothing they had. At one shop, Trilobite, they had a box of pasties available. I mentioned to my Mistress that I liked them. She then bought the box and gave it to me. She then told me to go back to the apartment right away. That peaked my interest a bit. I knew it meant she had an idea, but I never expected what it was.

Once home, she told me to take off my top and put on the pentacle design pasties (There like a pentagram, except the star points up). Once I had them on she launched right into a RP. Her hands erupted in blue flamed and she grabbed me by the breasts. This seared the marks onto my skin. There was no pain, only an overwhelming wave of pleasure. I buckled and fell to my knees. My mistress explained that she had just marked me. That I was bound to her, body, soul, and mind. She did this so she could draw energy from me, to fuel her spells. The more docile and submissive I was, the more energy she could draw.

I didn’t know what to say. This was so totally unexpected. And yet very exciting. She then told me that she had also tainted my body with darkness, a growing corruption that would affect my mind, making me think twisted thoughts. She explained that this was connected to what she did to my breasts. She then grabbed my nipple and squeezed. An inky black liquid oozed out. He explained that this was Dark Mothers Milk. It was corruption incarnate. My body was constantly producing it now, and the more I had filling my breasts, the darker and darker my thoughts and actions would become.

She told me that if I milked myself, and removed the corrupting influence from my body, the effect would lessen. The problem I found was that I couldn't milk myself. Every time I tried, waves of pleasure hit me, making me play with myself instead. I began to grow more and more worried as my breasts swelled larger, and my mind felt darker.

After we finished playing for the evening, my Mistress asked me what I though. I told her I was surprised by this twist. But honestly I liked it. Surprises keep me on my toes and RP this was a lot of fun. Glad that I liked it we both called it a night.

A few days later we RPed again. At this point my breasts were bulging, swollen to painful limits by the lack of milking. It also effected my mind. I wanted to have some sweet, innocent thing drink from me, and be entirely corrupted, reduced to nothing more than my personal milking machine. I was even dressing differently. Gone was pink, replaced by black. Mistress asked i I wished to be milked, and I quickly said yes. She then gave me a dildo with two tubes running out of it. at the end of the tubes was a pair of suction cups.

She told me to put the suction cups on my breasts and use the dildo. The action would create suction, pulling the milk from my breasts, down the tube, and to the dildo. I did as she said and was lost in pure bliss. While I was pleasuring myself, my Mistress asked me if I liked being milked like a cow. Not thinking, I said yes. she responded that she was glad to hear that. That she was going to transform me into a brainless, docile, cow girl (Not a cow cow girl. A human milk producer) She told me to get a cow suit together for next time we play.

Next post is going to be on something big that happened to me and my Mistress. Something REALLY REALLY big.

Thursday, February 1, 2007

Ssssssssomething different

I'm always on the look out for wacky, weird, cool, and kinky avatars. And the other day, I found a really incredible one. Behold Yora Vig, the Goth naga!

I saw one of my friends and fellow Fetish Mannequin, Piper Sieyes, at Kayliwulf wearing it. As soon as I saw it, I knew I had to have it. Piper was very nice, and we both TPed to Fa's shop (of Doom) the shop that sold the naga AV. There was quite a few choices in color. I settled on the albino tail, mostly because it was the one that stood out the most. We then did a round of skin mix and match, to see what looked best with the tail. I quickly discovered a Goth skin that looked fairly nice.

Some white hair, a snakeskin tube top and gloves, and a pair of albino pink eyes later, and i was ready to roll, er slither ;) Piper and I then bounced around some more, checking out some incredible looking dragon avatars at a place called the Isle of Wyrms.

The naga avatar is really well done. The tail is fully editable, so if I want to play with it I can. The slink and slither as you move is done perfectly. There's even a sit command, so I spin around and settle to the ground. All in all, I'm really happy with it. And as an added bonus, when I showed it to my Mistress later, she really seamed to like it to. Or maybe she just liked my Goth look ;)